Yet another worthless title. Basically just put the song I was listening to on Spotify. Not a promotion of the company but like if they want to pay me to promote them then I would be very willing to talk the money. The song is “I’ll be your man” by Passenger, my favorite song at the moment. I really don’t know why. Just the sound. Everyone sees me as “Emo” which hell yeah I like the music but I really like rap, indy, pop, really everything. Anyways lets get out of this rant and move to another one. Everyone’s favorite thing to read about my love life, more of my non existent one. I feel uncomfortable even typing this. Ever just not know what you are. Like straight or gay or whatever. No one is 100% straight or 100% gay. Maybe some people are but you can’t tell me that “God” made your soul mate the opposite gender as you. It’s impossible, there are 7 billion people on this planet yet I know people think they are just going to meet theirs and they will be the same race, gender, religion, etc. I can’t be the only one who thinks this is impossible. I’m not going to just trip over my soul mate in the middle of my small town with its population of like 20 and be happy here the rest of my life. I really don’t even think that soul mates are real or at least I never have before maybe I am a little hopeful but mostly just pessimistic. Tell me there isn’t one person in your entire life that is your same gender or different race or religion that you couldn’t “be with”. This can’t be all the factors of loving someone. What even is sexuality. Not like I don’t know what it is obviously know what it is. But I don’t know what the point of labeling it is. So I liked a couple girls out of the millions of guys I’ve liked and then I am labeled as bi or gay or lesbian or just confused. How is that fair. No one knows who I’m 100% attracted to because I honestly don’t care what gender you are. I guess I would be labeled as “pan”. Why does it really matter. I haven’t told anyone. I don’t want to gain this label. Gay. I’m not gay… at least I don’t think I am. I like guys. Any of my friends found out that I had any interest in anything else then I feel like I’d loose them. So I don’t say anything. I’d never be able to be with a guy because all he’d see was “she could be attracted to a girl.” I don’t want that. Am I hiding in the closet? How could I be. I’m not gay. Maybe the more I say it the more people can believe it. People think I am. They call me things. Fag, closet lesbian, oh yeah and one of my all time favorites ” just come out of the closet already we all know
. Me basically screaming that I’m not gay, I’m not gay, I’m not gay. Like it’s a bad word. But I’m not, I just don’t care. I believe that love is love and to just love who ever you want. People can find out I would date someone one who is the same sex or transitioning when I find someone I want to be with who is. I hope more people feel this way and it’s not just me. Actually I don’t, it isn’t that fun. I don’t know if anyone will read this or what will happen but I’ll just leave this here. Comment, email me, I really don’t care what you do with this post. Just don’t out me. Ha that was a joke.
Have a nice day….
love ya girl.